I only now found time to read you carefully @yannick, I am learning a lot. Thank you.
In my work in just Edgeryders - one of the networks you write about I find a mix of interesting thing and day to day drudgery. The latter is everything that comes with building something lasting and ensuring things with potential, high energetic ideas and people take off or multiply. All this while searching for yourself as an activist and human.
Got my own ways of pressuring myself - like you and @bilal, but have been staying with it.
I have to say though, it doesnt automatically follow that the organisation gets the best of me. It only gets the best out of me/ us as long as it works for the individual. My hunch is that there is a time of serving it (compromising, daily efforts put into it, “staying with it” as @alberto likes to say) and a time of it serving you (in your words, this is “the collective looking after the individual”). It the long haul, it probably happens in cycles, and if the foundations are pretty solid it should work out somehow. With due failure and personal disapointments etc. @Gehan do you know anything about this?
Just a few additions:
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Why do you feel you don’t fit the CIN narrative? What’s the narrative? Is it because many of the things you start require you to followup?
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I was at an OpenState camp just a few weeks ago (blogged about it here) and I get what you say about being given the space- self organisation onsite its something they do gracefully.
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About Edgeryders:
Thank you for reminding us this. Always good to read it coming from somewhere other than the organisation.