What is your entourage like?
Oh, this is familiar. I’ve read so many stories on Edgeryders where young people ask this very same questions, myself included. Then what helped me was spending time with others and realising that we’re all in the same boat and this is not a personal dillemma, it’s a collective one. Finding each other really gives you a sense of support, somehow it helped my mind get over the fact that there is a problem. Then things would only get easier in time, because you surround yourself with people who are like you - not only that they feel the same (most everyone does!) but that they talk about it in the same uncompromising way. What is your entourage like?
Have you read @Dougald’s piece? You’ll love it.
Oh an @Katja_Feldmeier, you should really talk to @NeleG, she touches on some similar questions in her post!