Hi @wlayche and welcome to edgeryders! If I’m not mistaken, you are, after @zmuc, the second active community member on the forum, from Serbia!
I’m Noemi, one of the long timers around here, and aa couple of years ago when I turned 30 and moved from Romania to Belgium in a series of radical life changes I also started to think about spirituality in a broader perspective.
I think complexity is the norm, and navigating it is even harder for those of us coming from fairly traditional societies. The Orthodox Church and traditions in my country are still highly influential both culturally and politically, so if you are walking away from them - including a simple thing, like not wanting to be married in a church! - will, even in progressive bubbles, still require, at a minimum, for you to explain yourself. It can be tiring.
But more than breaking away with prescriptions, I find challenging routing yourself in new morally support systems. Especially social and family. If you read this story from the Czech Republic, it’s telling how difficult it is to be culturally open and wanting to travel and experiment, and still find a home:
Feel free to reply there in another language, Maria, the author, will translate.